It turns out, I'm neither ready nor able to maintain a monthly schedule with The Lantern. I felt that I was, but I've had some trouble getting into the groove and this is my admitting it to myself that I'm going to have to suspend the November issue at this time. I'll be releasing this issue as the December issue... it is about two-thirds done at present, so I shouldn't have a problem. Thereafter, I'll release a February issue and see how the work-demand goes.
I shouldn't admit it, but at present I don't feel all that great about myself just now, so I'll throw that into the mix. These ideas come to me — and I continue to believe that The Lantern must be about the best idea I've had in my life — but the degree of confidence they demand out of me is most of the time a bridge too far. I've had a long lifetime of many, many failures... so that no matter how well something is going, or how much reason I have to believe in it... or even the intellectual capacity to achieve it... what's lacking is faith. That's always going to be was sabotages me. And it just takes a bad week, a bad chance set of circumstances piling together at the same time to make me feel like the legs have been kicked right out from under me. So it is here. And I'm going to need a couple weeks of lying to myself and smacking myself in the face to make me see right again.
I don't have time to do that between now and the first of October, so... yeah. It'll be another month.
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