So, for a month I have been putting up pictures of myself, one a day. The purpose for doing this was to try and break down the walls of the internet - to help separate myself from a grumpy voice writing posts and emphasize my humanity. Before the internet, all my arguments with people were in person - and if they were unhappy with me, I was at least close enough that they could reach out and make that unhappiness known.
Off the internet, however, when we are arguing with a person, we can see pain, we can see when our points are making headway, we can see the moment in a listener's expression where they've lost our thread. And we can adjust for that. Here, however, we're all blind. Most of the time, we can forget we're speaking to a human being because all we see is text.
I actually don't much like to see myself in pictures. A picture emphasizes too many qualities about my appearance that I'm not fond of; and I've never thought a picture does me justice. Pictures are too static, too unforgiving. I am trying to get over this, however, because I want to stop being just a compilation of words. I want to be a person.
I'm sure I'm making some readers uncomfortable. I'm sorry for that. But the reality is that what you're reading now is the physical, sometimes-less-that-attractive embodiment of someone real. And I hope that being real helps a bit with my being less threatening.