Friday, June 12, 2015

Scarred

Two weeks of unrealistic expectations, breakneck training without repetition, daily humiliation and the empathic equivalent of throwing bricks at a stone wall, I am unemployed again.

It has been a trying, vicious, emotionally retarded and altogether unpleasant experience.  I have not quit a job in 15 years; I do not like the feeling of quitting, I do not like the process or the baggage that follows or all the rehashing that goes along with it - should, shouldn't, could have, did try, what did I miss, fuck it.

Feel crippled and exhausted and for that reason the blog hasn't seen much activity.  But until the next job comes along, I have time again.  Time I didn't want to have, but there it is.

Life sucks.

3 comments:

Jomo Rising said...

I hate the cyclical rehashing. Sucks every time I do it. I slip away, farther and farther. But... There is D&D, and my Love.

Maximillian Boii said...

That's really too bad. I'm glad you realized and got out quickly. Still must be demoralizing though.

Vlad Malkav said...

I'm sorry for you, and as Maximilian said, glad that you got out of this hell early.

Good luck for next time !